My Prayer Today…
If another prayer of mine you never answer but this one, then I ask that I would be more like You everyday. That You would grant me a heart like yours, that my heart would be broken with the very things that break yours. In Jesus matchless name, I ask this.
Sometimes, I feel this need, this longing, this desire to do something extraordinary. To be part of something really big. I guess it’s like a calling of sorts and I want that…I want to do something BIG. I want my life to matter.
I want to be one of those Christians that lives on the edge. Not because of who I am but because of Who God is. I want to do the extraordinary. I want to run after Him. I want to be part of something BIG.
And I can’t help but look at modern Christianity - go to church, read the Bible, say a few prayers - and think it’s wrong. I think our relationship with Christ is supposed to be life-changing, life-altering so much so that we are no longer seen but rather that Jesus is seen when people see us.
I love ordinary. I love the familiar life I lead but I can’t shake the feeling that I was meant for more. I was meant to do awesome things for God by God’s power. And I want that. I just don’t know how you get from ordinary to extraordinary.
It’s like this calling inside of me that grows more and more. Sometimes I can silence it but it always comes back. Louder and more insistent. And I wanna follow that call but I need to know how…
God, I don’t know how to follow this call. But I know that I hear it. And I’m willing to follow. Just show me. Show me how to move forward. Show me. Show up in my life. Change me. Rearrange me. Break me - if that’s what it takes. But Jesus, please don’t let me ignore this call. Don’t ignore this plea - I’m begging. I’ll do what you want, go where you want me to go. Just teach me to follow.
